Goodbye FB by Christine Cantrell PhD

  • Posted on October 9, 2017 at 9:35 am

Hi Friends Apparently I am not allowed on FB from my PC.  If you haven’t heard, I’ve been blocked due to someone reporting my name is an alias.  I will be permanently blocked as of next Tues, 7 days after FB requires me to provide ID to prove this is my “everyday, legal name.”  BS, I say.  I’m not giving FB any ID.  It already has my friends, my photos of the people, cats and flowers in my life.  I’m done. Read this and understand how FB really works. Help! I’m trapped in Facebook’s Absurd Pseudonym Purgatory, and I Can’t Get Out!  https://www.wired.com/…/06/facebook-real-name-policy-probl…/ If you want to contact me: 248-591-2888 for text or call christineccantrellphd@gmail.com eden_co_creator for Instagram @Cccbenyamine for Twitter. Website – http://christinecantrell.com/ Goodbye FB.  No more Russian ads interfering with our election for Michigan FB users, no more fake news that abounds here.  Instagram seems to be a similar platform and that will be my new home… By Mon night I’ll shut FB down. Christine Cantrell Phd

Dear Christine, Interconnected in Ypsilanti

  • Posted on October 1, 2017 at 12:47 pm

Dear Christine, My husband and I work together, live together, share most of the same friends and enjoy many of the same activities. We’ve been together for 9 years this September. I recently decided to join an LGBT bowling league. My husband feels hurt but I feel it’s time we don’t do every single thing together. My feelings for him are as strong as ever. Am I being selfish for wanting us to finally have a thing or two that we can do on our own? Signed, Interconnected in Ypsilanti Dear Interconnected, Every relationship is unique and complicated. What first attracts us can later on drive us apart. In a marriage, each of you has individual needs and wants as well as the couple together having needs. Making sure you have time to be together, sharing love, lives, cooking and cleaning, friends and emotions are necessary. Sometimes couples grow distant because of being apart too much, due to work, parenting or separate interests. If that’s the case, planning time to be together is crucial. People grow and change in their emotional and social needs, but they don’t always grow the same direction at the same time. As needs and wants…

Dear Christine, Nervous in Novi

  • Posted on September 25, 2017 at 10:24 am

Dear Christine, Have you ever looked into another woman’s eyes and your heart began to race? Well that’s what it was like for me. First off I never intended to like girls. I wasn’t raised that way but some things changed down the line. I met this woman. She changed me just staring at me a few times. Like it’s a stare you can’t describe. You just feel your heart race and you sweat a little. So at first I didn’t know how to approach her. But I finally did, through my sister. We began to talk a lot on the phone and I began to get closer and that made me catch the feelings for her that I still have right today. She’s probably the first person I have ever taken seriously. I plan on telling her how I feel hoping she’ll understand. I know there’s not much she can do because she’s married but she can at least learn from her mistakes of leading me on. There will be those days where she will wink and touch me and smile or even interrupt whoever she’s talking to say hey to me. Then other days she’ll walk right past…

Dear Christine, De-Gay in De-Troit

  • Posted on September 18, 2017 at 8:54 am

Dear Christine, My boyfriend and I have a 2 bedroom apartment, and we’ve been together for over a year, and I’m so tired of having to “de-gay” our home before his mom comes over. I have to take down all our pictures, all our rainbow symbols and make the second bedroom look like I sleep in it, which I don’t. He’s really close to her, but doesn’t think she knows he’s gay and doesn’t know we’re together. She’s really into the church, and he’s scared she won’t speak to him again, if he tells her that we’re a couple and he’s gay. I don’t think that’s true. She visits him all the time here. It’s really getting on my nerves and I don’t think I can take this double life anymore. I’ve been out for a couple of years and it’s really hard to go back in the closet for my boyfriend’s mom.

Dear De-Gay,  I hear your frustration! It’s hard to be in a relationship with someone who isn’t “out” full time. All I can ask of you is patience, and to keep talking with your boyfriend. He needs to make this decision to out himself to his mother in his time, not in yours. Talk together about how you each feel, what you each fear. Examine your own heart, and make sure that you are not violating a non-negotiable in your life. Must you be in a relationship with someone who is out to their family and friends, or can you find a middle way, as he figures out who he is and tells important others in his life? If it’s a non-negotiable, communicate that, as he needs to know what you need. He may not be able to meet your need, but at least he would know where you stand. Remember back to your coming out, or friends who struggled with rejection from family, and know that this is a process. Even if you believe his mom knows he’s gay, you aren’t going to convince him. It’s really important to listen, with love and acceptance of where he is. The only way change happens is when we stop trying to change, and instead just accept that this is how things are. In my experience, once I quit trying to change myself (or someone else) and let it be, that’s when things shift. So hard and so easy all at once. Christine C. Cantrell, PhD

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Dear Christine, Crazy in Clawson

  • Posted on September 11, 2017 at 10:23 am

Dear Christine,  My girlfriend and I have been together for a year, and maybe I moved in too fast (second date…) but I’m having a hard time with her relationships with her family. Her two daughters live with us half of the time and half with their father. I am very close to the girls and they talk with me all the time, and tell me that they love me and even come into our bedroom at night to kiss their mom goodnight, and me! My girlfriend claims she isn’t gay but just loves me, and she’s isn’t comfortable telling the girls, or anyone else in the family, that we are in love and we are a couple, and with the girls, we really are a family. Her family is involved with Christmas, and last year, we pretended I was just living there for a while, to help them out. She wants me to move out of the bedroom, so her sister and brother in law can have her bedroom when they visit for Christmas this year. That’s the living end for me! I’ve been out and proud for over 20 years, and I just feel like a maid. I’m “the help”, helping with the household, cooking, driving kids around etc, but not given the respect of being family! My girlfriend has been telling me all year that she wants to tell her family, but that she’s not ready. I’m afraid she’s never going to be ready, and I feel like I’m going crazy. Help! What do I do to not feel like a maid, but be a part of this family? Crazy in Clawson

Dear Crazy,  The holidays are such a stressful time, even without the pressures of coming out to family! Sounds like you have a very loving and good relationship with your girlfriend and her children, and that’s wonderful. Since you’ve been out forever, and she never saw herself as lesbian before, it’s really important to give her space and time to figure out how to acknowledge this relationship with her family. I would be surprised if the kids haven’t figured out that the two of you are a couple, saying good night to both of you in your bedroom! Kids are pretty sophisticated and aware these days. They may not know the labels, but clearly they feel connected to you, and treat you like family, not a maid.

I’m not recommending you move out of the bedroom for visitors, as I don’t recommend a couple in their own home give up their private space to others. One example of why, is the story I heard recently. A man stayed overnight at a friend’s house, and she let him use her bedroom. He opened a bedside drawer, looking for a clock, and he found some handcuffs! Clearly, she hadn’t expected him to go in the drawer! He found it very embarrassing to see her the next morning, thinking “Good morning Mrs. Handcuffs” but trying to keep cool and be appropriate. When he thinks of that friend, the handcuffs are the first thing that comes to mind. So, keeping your privacy is important, both yours and your girlfriend’s. Keep talking with your girlfriend about her process, but back off of any ultimatums. Listen to her thoughts and feelings, and trust the love that you and she and her children share. Love conquers fear, always. Trust your girlfriend’s process and hopefully she will tell her family directly, soon.

Christine C. Cantrell, PhD
1026 W. 11 Mile Rd,
Suite C
Royal Oak, MI 48067
248-591-2888

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Dear Christine, Trans in Trenton

  • Posted on September 3, 2017 at 1:55 pm

Dear Christine,
How can I be happy when I’m never gonna be a cisgendered male, And the surgery is still not good enough?  I might as well end it, I can’t ever be happy with no support, or with the surgery results, No I haven’t started HRT just yet.  And on top of that I always get jealous of cismales.
Trans in Trenton
Dear Trans,
Thanks for writing Trans, and for my readers, I’ll start by explaining what your question means.  Cisgender male  or abbreviated to cis, is a word that’s been around since 1994, referring to someone who self-perception of their gender matches the sex they were assigned at birth and their personal identity.  (Cisgender has it’s origin in the Latin-derived cis-, meaning “on the side of) which is an antonym for trans-, meaning “across from” or “on the other side of”.)
I hear your pain and despair about your body and your identity not matching and the dread that it never will be in coherence adequately with hormones and/or surgery.  It’s a really tough place to be.  You have the option to end your life, but that is a permanent solution a problem that may not be so all pervasive once you start taking some steps to help your body look as you feel on the inside.  I’m just not sure that happiness is all wrapped up in a perfect body.
This is an extreme example, but Stephen Hawking is a man who has lived with ALS (amyotrophic lateral sclerosis) for 50 years, far longer than most people with that disease.
It usually kills a person in just a few years, progressively paralyzing the muscles, until your lungs cannot breathe anymore.  Stephen Hawking got a terrible case of pneumonia in 1985, and his doctors asked his wife if it was time to pull the plug and let him die.  He was so very sick, and had ALS on top of it.  His wife said no.  She had him treated and eventually he came out of that very serious infection.   After that, he had no use of his voice, and has had to use a computer to generate a voice to read the words he types.  He is now a quadriplegic and on a ventilator.  And yet, he said that the bout of pneumonia in 1985 that almost killed him made him realize how brief life can be.  So, he set about his work in Physics.  He has lived longer than most people with ALS, and he has achieved more than most people in general.  He is internationally known for his work in black holes in astrophysics, and at 70 is awaiting data to confirm his M-theory, a complete theory of  the universe, which would launch him toward a Nobel Prize.  He has regrets, however, and one is that my disability “has prevented me from playing with my (3) children and my (3) grandchildren as fully as I want.”


So, I offer Mr. Hawkings as inspiration that happiness can be deeper and more lasting than the physical package which clothes our soul.  You have a spirit and you have a purpose.  Your job in this life is to figure out that purpose and live out your life being fully who you are!  I hope you can find a way to make peace with your limited and imperfect body, and perhaps hormones and surgery will get it looking closer to what you know of who you are on the inside.  No, you can’t be a cismale, and if that is all you focus your life on, you will always be miserable.  You can be a transman and you can make a difference in this world by living out loud, being you, trans and all.  Hormones do amazing things to resculpt bodies and there are new advances in transgender surgeries that get better all the time.  You are who your soul is, not your body.  It definitely helps to have your body look and function well, but who you are is a lot deeper than that.  Talk to a professional who can help you sort out your body image issues with being trans and not cis.  Explore options of going on hormones and start taking steps to make peace with the body you have, which will never be the body you want.  Even if you were to somehow magically become a cisman, aging happens to us all.  If you look at your parents and grandparents, you will see that their once young, handsome, strong bodies have become disfigured, sagging and arthritic, and their once gorgeous blonde or brown hair is now gray, or even bald.  No one is perfect and I highly doubt that anyone is 100% happy with their body, trans or cis.  Doing what you can with hormones, clothes, and possibly surgery will open the door to contentment with the wrapper your soul comes in.  It’s all a process.  Give yourself the space and time to explore this with people who can help you.  Keep in touch. Christine C. Cantrell, PhD

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Dear Christine, Fearing Fatherhood

  • Posted on August 27, 2017 at 10:49 am

Dear Christine,
I am16 years old, now the thing is I’m not really sure of my sexuality, but I think I’m gay.
This weekend I had a talk with my grandma (this is when they start telling me my duties as a man and other crap) and she spoke about family and how I’m the only male of my generation with my granddads surname, so should I not have children, our surname kinda dies with me.
When I told her i don’t want kids, she threw a fit and lectured me about how I’d be killing a legacy. We also watched a popular TV show which features a gay couple, and she said to me “and I hope you don’t like what you see.”
Also, my mom is very homophobic (my dad seems more accepting) and if she found out about me, there will be a sh*t-storm. What’s worse is that even she expects me to carry on the family name.
Normally, I don’t care what people say (even my parents, but they know that I don’t want kids) but the way my gran spoke to me made me think. Part of me thinks that my family is selfish for expecting something of me that I’m not comfortable with, but another part thinks that I am being selfish for not wanting to have kids for the family.
I am not the kind of guy to just sleep with someone, so I won’t be having kids unless I actually marry the woman.
It seems that so far my only solution (which I am greatly considering) is either studying abroad and hopefully finding a job there so I can stay, or moving out of the country after studying and running away.
I know I’m only 16 and shouldn’t be worrying about kids, but let’s be honest, this is going to haunt me for a long time, so I might as well think about it now. So far I have no plans of coming out to my family.
What I want to know is whether I should go through life faking being straight, marry a woman and have kids with her? Also, any other advice would be appreciated.
Signed, Fearing Fatherhood in Farmington

Dear Fearing Fatherhood, Hey!  Last time I checked, most families didn’t want their 16 year old kids having babies just to carry on the name!  You are too young for all this pressure!  If you aren’t out to your family, then I’d encourage you to not come out until you’ve got more support in your life to cope with your family’s dreams and expectations of you.

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So, what do you do?  It’s hard to be out and proud with homophobics in the family.  You are not alone, however.  There’s support, here on the internet, and in the real world (Affirmations Youth Program would be a good place to start http://.goaffirmations.org).  If you have a parent (your dad seems more possible here) have him check out Parents and Friends of Lesbians and Gays, PFLAG, a national non-profit organization with over 200,000 members and supporters.  There, your family can get facts and information about having a gay kid, and they can discover that it is completely possible for you to have your own children, even as a gay man!  Science is wonderful!  For PFLAG in general, check out this site:    http://pflag.org and for PFLAG Detroit’s area chapter see http://pflagdetroit.org or PFLAG Ann Arbor http://pflagaa.org or info@pflag-fr-detroit.org. 
I do not recommend trying to pretend to be straight to the point of marrying a woman and having children.  That’s not fair to the woman, or children, and it’s certainly not fair for you.  Focus on school.  Graduate High School, and the College.  Studying abroad is a great way to learn more about yourself as an independent adult (I studied in Jerusalem for a year).  There are others who make sure they move out of the family home as soon as they are able to support themselves, some even moving out of state, where they can explore who they are without family pressures.

Gay men have kids all the time these days.  There’s women who will be a surrogate for you, allowing her egg or someone else’s to be mixed with your sperm and implanted in her for the pregnancy.  There’s also plenty of foster children and children who need adoption.  They might not carry on your genes, but they are children who are here and desperately need a family to belong to and to love them.  I just heard an interview with Elton John on the radio last week, and learned he now has two sons, Zachary (2.5 y o) and Elijah, 9 mo old) both born of a surrogate mother.  He has been legally in a civil union with David Furnish since 2005, and is a staunch supporter of gay marriage in the United Kingdom.  The United States is changing rapidly in attitudes and laws about gay marriage.  There are currently 13 states that allow gays and lesbians to marry, and fifteen countries around the world that recognize gay marriage.  The Federal Agency that collects taxes in the US, the IRS, recently ruled that gay and lesbian couples who are legally married in any state or country must now file taxes as a married couple.  Social Security also just announced that same sex marriages will be recognized by the Social Security Association, allowing gay couples retirement and disability income rights, among others.  There are lawsuits going through in Michigan and Ohio and other non-gay marriage states that are working to overturn the state constitutional amendments that were made 6 -9 years ago to forbid gay marriage.  You’re 16.  By the time you’re ready to marry anyone, male or female, I’m guessing it could be 10 years.  That is a long time with how quickly change is happening in acceptance of gay and lesbian families and marriages.  By the time you finish college, you may well be out, living in a different state from your family and you may be out and happy with life.  And they may see what more straight but not narrow people see:  you are still their son/grandson, and they love you for who you are, nothing more, nothing less.  Take care, and keep in touch.

Christine C. Cantrell, PhD
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Royal Oak, MI 48067
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Dear Christine, Shocked in Saugatuck

  • Posted on August 21, 2017 at 8:38 am

Dear Christine, I’ve been living with my wife for 20 years and I just discovered something. She just confessed that she hasn’t seen a doctor for a physical for over 10 years! This scares me! I love her and understand from family experience that prevention saves lives. Now she is afraid to go. How can I convince her? Shocked in Saugatuck Dear Shocked, We think we know each other and all our secrets in marriage! But the truth is, there is so much we don’t know about each other! Interesting read about this here: https://www.nytimes.com/2017/08/18/style/modern-love-married-to-a-mystery-man.html? mwrsm=Facebook. I’m glad you and your wife had this discussion. Going for many years without any health care happens to a great number of people, and in my experience, more often with men than women. Most people have stable health and don’t really see the need to go to a doctor for an annual physical when they aren’t having any health concerns. And if you are lucky, you can go 10 years without needing any medical care. However, life is a pre-existing condition, and eventually, we all have something go awry, the flu, a sprained ankle, a car accident, a bursting appendix, a blocked colon,…

Dear Christine, Dressed in Dearborn

  • Posted on August 14, 2017 at 9:27 am

Dear Christine,  I’m a straight male, and I like dressing up. I’ve always been into fashion, and my brother and cousin are gay, and I’m an LGBT advocate. Still it bothers me to be called something I’m not: gay. How do I get my classmates, gay and straight, to stop bullying me at school, who assume that I’m gay just because of the way I dress. There’s nothing wrong with being gay, it’s just that I’m not gay! Dressed in Dearborn Dear Dressed, A few years ago, there was a term used to describe people like you: metrosexual. These are men, often straight, who are extremely well groomed, dress well in the latest style, wear colognes, and they might get highlights in their hair, or get manicures or pedicures. They aren’t rugged, but are clean. A lot of the Hollywood stars are metrosexuals They aren’t a man’s man, or a hipster. They are in the know about the finer things in life. Celebrities get talked about all the time, and people speculate about their sexuality if it isn’t obvious. One example is Kevin Spacey. Rumors have it that he is gay, but when asked by reporters, he doesn’t deny or…

Dear Christine, Frustrated in Ferndale

  • Posted on August 7, 2017 at 9:24 am

Dear Dr. Christine, Question: I am a lesbian, and I’m masculine looking and proud of being me. I like hanging out with straight girls, as they are more fun, I think, than lesbians. I get caught up in a cycle that is exhausting, and I wonder what should happen? For example, my straight friend “Cindy” likes to hang out at my house and we’ll watch movies together, and pretty soon, she’s holding my hand on the couch, and before long she’s cuddling with me! I can’t watch the movie to the end! She’s driving me crazy. The next day I’ll try to tell her that I’m really attracted to her and want her, and she’ll just laugh and tell me that she doesn’t have feelings like that for me. When I ask her about being such a tease, she insists that she does these PDAs with her other straight girlfriends. It’s torture! I try to tell her that I’m like a guy, that if you hold my hand and cuddle with me it turns me on, and I can’t stop! If she really does this with her straight girl friends, then it sure isn’t something I can do and remain…